june 2 2023

I can remember so little, but I know at the very end I was in a small storage room usually occupied by a vaguely evil woman. The door has a code lock, and inside there's a big red button attached to a thick cable which, when pressed, destroys everything in the room. I'm there with a few people, and we've been hanging out in the larger complex the storage room is a part of for a while. The sense is that we'd been trying to get into this room for a while. The evil lady comes back and tries to get in, and she knows the code, so I'm pulling on the door to keep it shut. Whenever she manages to get the door open a crack, I threaten her by waving the big red button at her. This goes on. She's distressed, nearly in tears. Eventually we are struggling with the door and behind me I hear one of the other people yell "the energy fishes!" I look and a whole bunch of miniscule translucent fish each glowing with a faint symbol swim through the air past me toward the lady. She's overjoyed to see them and exclaims "my fishes!!" The scene is suddenly overwhelming to me - it's the combination of the incredible beauty of the fishes, the sudden guilt at having threatened to destroy them, and further guilt at having thought of as evil a lady who only wanted to be with her fishes. I give up on holding the door and collapse, sobbing. Then I wake up.