april 19 2023

I had a dream last night also, although I was staying with Jordan and the sleeping ararngements prevented me from typing it in the moment of waking. But I just thought of it again. There was some stuff, but the important parts were as follows. Most of it was in a large mess hall. I go to get food, and on my way back to my seat, I pass you sitting at a different table and you stand up, turn around, and look at me. Your hair is black and hangs to your chin, and your eyes are very wide. I feel a wave of panic and quickly turn and walk away and sit against the wall away from you. You sit back down and keep eating. I glance at you from time to time, and sometimes you're looking back, and the fear heightens. The whole time, I'm flush with the realization that "this whole time, we've been in the same room," in the sense that this scenario is continuous with our actual interactions in real life, which all played out while we were literally in the same room. After a while you walk over to me and stand above me. I think about how tall you are, exactly like that other dream I had. You crouch, and start talking about something, but I'm overwhelmed and I can't focus to the point that your voice is severely muffled. At point you tuck my hair behind me ear for me. Later, from a distinctly removed perspective (although distinctly still me), I witness you lying face-up atop a massage-chair-type apparatus, while someone stands behind you and makes hand motions around your head. Now, your hair is brown, and the proper length. Your eyes are closed. You softly exclaim "oh my god..." several times indicating awe at whatever you're experiencing. I feel sad at my removal from the scene. Then I wake up.